(8/17/06) i looked so good -- except my huge erection

(Entered in paper journal at 7:25 PM at home in Brooklyn.)

Dream 1

I ran down a street like the business area of the my old, small hometown. I wore a yellow sundress, which was clinging to my skin (because of sweat or wetness?) and clung up over my belly, so my whole front was exposed from my sternum down. I had a very feminine body but a big penis. I was also, not fat, but like I am in waking life, where I am mostly skinny but also have a "food-stuffed" belly. I had long, curly hair.

I ran like I was crazy, hysterical, though I remember being happy in an almost gentle way. I wanted to get home and show my family how feminine my body looked.

I got to a place like a long, narrow shop, like an antique warehouse full of barber booths. This was my mom's house. Nobody was around. I thought that was good -- I could arrange myself better -- put on some panties and smooth down my dress. But I had an erection that wouldn't go away.

I got some panties. I lay on some bed. I kept wanting to wet the bed.

At some point I, standing, saw myself in a mirror. I was shocked to see myself. I was surprised I looked so good -- except my huge erection.

My mom might have come into the room near the end of the dream.