(11/9/06) driving to the airport; scaffolding tunnel and golden bead eagle

(Entered in paper journal at 5:49 AM at Starbucks on 56th Street and 6th Avenue in Manhattan.)

Dream 1

I was in the backseat of a car driven by my co-worker MW. MW was driving me to the airport. A few of our co-workers were in the car. I had said a couple stupid things. Everybody in the car was laughing at me.

We drove through a beautiful downtown area like a wide plaza with old stone buildings done up to seem very cosmopolitan. Somewhere was a large poster-ad for Kurt Cobain. Seeing that poster I felt a strong connection to something that made me feel less stupid.

I was in my mom's house. My grandma P was taking me to the airport. We were really late. I asked, "Isn't my mom coming with us?"

My grandma said, "She isn't here, and we can't wait for her."

Dream 2

I was walking down a wide street that feels like it was close at the edge of a big, busy town. On my left was a building under construction, covered in blue scaffolding that created a tunnel over the sidewalk. It was a bright grey morning.

As I got close to the sidewalk tunnel entrance, though staying on the street instead of the sidewalk, a woman bustled quickly past me. From the shoulders and hair I knew it was one of my old Americorps co-workers, KA. Before KA headed into the tunnel, I called to her. She stopped violently and impatiently. She turned around only cursorily.

I called her name and said, "It's me!"

KA turned and couldn't see anybody she recognized. She waved to the air angrily and said, "Oh, hi. I have to go."

I called again, "KA! It's Preemie! I'm right in front of you!"

She looked closely at me and said, "Oh. You've changed."

We talked for a moment. Mostly she spoke. I could feel her speech in my ears.

She said she had gone to a party with friends who had promised her she would be able to get to work on time. But they had lied. Now she was rushing to salvage her time.

As I looked at her I saw how much more mature she looked. Her eyes were a little paler. Her skin was clear but dryish or weathered looking. She looked motivated and strong. But her clothes were dirty. I thought she may have been having hard times financially.

I felt bad standing before KA in my nice clothes. But then I realized, She's wearing old clothes because she runs one of the city's parks. She does works and gets dirty.

I looked at KA again. She wored jeans, a white t-shirt, and a navy blue hoodie. KA looked like she was skinnier -- and it looked nice, especially her legs. her jeans were pale and they had patterns on the fronts of the upper legs. The patterns were made of little, golden, rectangular beads. They might have been eagle patterns.