(Entered in paper journal at 5:22 AM on Q-train from Brooklyn to Manhattan.)
Dream #1
I got into an elevator with some of my co-workers. We went down. As we did, one of us (my boss BS?) commented on how six or seven analyst groups in my department had been fired. BS said that might be all the cuts, as far as analysts' whole teams went, but that some workers on the lower levels (strangely named levels, such as CDSs, CSDs, or CSAs?) were probably going to lose their jobs. I worried that I would lose my job. This was even more upsetting to me because I had taken so long just to get to the low level I was at.
All the time in the elevator my eyes kept shutting and my mind kept blanking out. I had to keep re-focusing myself to force my eyes open and keep my mind alert. I missed a lot of the exact details that BS was giving, though I strained to hear them.
We got out of the elevator. On the floor, we passed AT, one of the Directors of my department. I feared that I had once said something unbecoming around her.
Dream #2
I was in a house that was also a lingerie store. I wore a bra and panties, probably with realistic flower patterns. A pretty, blonde girl with short hair was attending to me.
I got an erection, which went upward, not outward, and then pushed the underwear out near the panty-waist. I walked away, into a bedroom, which had display racks of lingerie on the wall. I didn't want the girl who'd been attending me to see my erection and feel violated by how aroused I was around her.
But the girl walked into the room. The tip of my penis stuck out over the waistband of the panties. I told the woman, "Oh, don't look at me yet. I have to calm down."
The woman said, "No, no. Let me see you."
By now my penis was huge and stood a lot out of the underwear. The girl trembled and sighed. She was trying to hide her excitement. She pressed against my penis and stomach and sat me down on the bed. She said, "Here, Let me take care of this." She knelt down and put her face close to my penis.
Dream #3
I watched as two men raced in a weird environment. It was like all around them was deep blue sky. There were puffy, white tufts of clouds dotting the lower part of this sky-land. Over the clouds were occasional bright, white squares. The two men raced by hopping along from square to square.
One of the men was like me, except maybe stronger, more mature. The other was black, wearing only white shorts or underwear. At one point I may have become the man who was like me.
The black man said something (we conversed as we raced). The man's voice had an electronic sound and clattered over itself, as if it were sent through a sound system on short echo. But something about this also slowed his voice down, not to sound deeper, but just to slow the delineation of the words.
I told the man, "I forgot that when you appear by XXXXX" (something like "dimensional holograph") "your speech is delayed. But you run faster."
The man bolted ahead of me, leaping from square to square. I managed to get ahead by jumping on special "booster" squares which rocketed me along. I jumped up onto a high platform. I hit a column-like, greyish "booster." The man was still keeping pace. The floor of this platform was like purplish tile. The floating squares we jumped on were clear. Each time I would jump on one I would shout, "Diamond Square!"
Things faded away. I sat at my desk at work. A guy standing to my right said, "Yeah, she doesn't believe in work efficiency at all. She thinks being asked to be efficient is a violation against her. And if she sees anybody being efficient she'll try to get them in trouble for violating her. That's why she plays those internet games all the time. And she tries to get others to do it, too." (I felt like the "internet game" was a computer distortion of the cloud/diamond square race game I had just experienced.)
A smallish, Hispanic woman now came up to us. The male co-worker stopped talking, as if he were afraid this woman would report what we'd said to the slacker woman, or as if this woman herself was the slacker woman.
Now a lot of women had come into the area. There were a few really cute, short girls, Asian and Hispanic. I couldn't quite see or keep focus on the girls. I knew some of the women were defiantly lesbian, and that they tried to force or convince all the other women also to be defiantly lesbian.
Now the crowd cleared so I could see one of the really cute girls (her friends had moved away). All the girls were aww-ing, as if to say, "Isn't this so cute?"
A medium-sized, medium-build, blonde, Hispanic woman held the cute girl's hand. She asked the cute girl to marry her. The cute girl accepted. This, in effect, meant they were now married. The cute girl was extremely happy. She hugged the Hispanic girl tightly.
Dream #4
An iron (?) relief in a circle, like an Aztec astrological circle. A woman said something about which I had ambiguous feelings. The circle now split. The right half was still the Aztec figure. The left half was now bright blue, sparkling water, almost like a video-intensified image of water. I didn't know whether this was good or bad.
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