(5/20/08) awning ad awning; hypnotized by fulfillment; johnny's rotten house

(Entered in paper journal at 6:40 AM at Starbucks on 41st Street and Broadway in Manhattan.)

Dream #1

It was a grey day, warm and breezy. I was in a parking lot with my mom and my brother. We sat in a car. We may have been in a parking lot for a mall, although we were in front of a grocery store. My mom was talking about possibly going into the store. My brother or my brother and I may have been complaining about having to wait for my mom.

The store had a gigantic, multicolored (probably vertical stripes of purple orange, and green) awning before its top half. The entire awning was an advertisement for an awning-advertisement company. There was some slogan on it like, "OUR AWNING ADS WILL BRING CUSTOMERS INTO YOUR STORE." I thought, These ads obviously don't work: nobody's coming to this mall or the grocery store.

I got out of the car. The wind got stronger. I ran into the wind, down the parking lot aisle. I realized I could float by jumping upwards in a strong gust and getting caught in the wind. I did so. At first I flew about ten feet in the air. I flew in the direction in which I'd been running, not in the direction of the wind.

I could hear my mother and brother arguing about something. I floated counterclockwise around a small planting-island that had small pine trees in it. I noticed I was floating only a few feet above the ground. I was disappointed that I hadn't been able actually to fly.

I landed on a wide spread of pine branches that were dotted with loose-lying, small pine cones. I was on the opposite side of the parking island and just down the way from my mom and brother. Despite my distance from them, I could still hear my mom and brother arguing.

I thought if I could develop my technique a little better I would be able to jump into the wind just the right way to fly instead of just float like I had just done.

Dream #2

I was in a dark house. There was a weird female monster. Someone else, probably a man, was in the house with me. I had managed to throw the monster off our track once. I thought I had defeated the monster. I left the other person in a lit room while I walked through some surrounding dark rooms. It may have been that the electricity was slowly going out in the house.

I could see the monster woman in the lit room, creeping up behind the man, out from a shadowy doorway. The woman had a beautiful face, but her body was coated in certain patches with silverish-greenish scales. The woman was bald, and her fingers ended in claws.

The female monster had the ability to hypnotize a person with promises of granting their desires. By getting her victims stuck in an atmosphere of their own desires, she would make them into something like zombies. Either she was most powerful when the electricity was out, or, as her power rose, the electricity would go out.

I may have thought that the man in the lit room was doomed. In order to protect myself I may have started trying to keep myself from falling into the illusions of the fulfillment of my own desires.

Dream #3

I saw a newspaper article talking about a home owned by Johnny Rotten of the Sex Pistols. The home may actually have been an entire apartment building, all owned by Johnny Rotten. The building was in a rundown part of town. All the buildings looked grey and sooty.

I stood in the entrance to the building. I heard a woman, who may have been the author of the newspaper article, say something like, "He calls this place a fixer-upper in an up-and-coming neighborhood. But he always leaves it in disarray. It's a real dump."

I stood in an orange room with a couple other people. We walked into a much larger room full of light from windows. The paint on the walls was chipping. The floors were stripped and spattered with dirt and paint.

I walked toward another room and looked in on a weird, black-iron structure which I thought of as a bathtub. As I looked at the structure, I said to somebody else in the group, "I was looking forward so much to taking a bath after the long trip. But I didn't realize this place was so disgusting. Oh, well. Nevermind."

I walked into another room, which was also barren and in disrepair.

(8/11/08) dismembered aircraft; filthy shower; lottery CEO

(Entered in paper journal at 6:16 AM on Q-train from Brooklyn to Manhattan.)

Dream #1

A group of people were all working along a forest hillside. The hillside was, or appeared to be, charred. There were three groups, all of which had a strange vehicle like the neck of a crane which flew along the hillside.

One of the men in one of the groups had gone crazy and dismembered his own vehicle. He may also have been dismembering the other groups' vehicles. I heard the man talk, as if he had been recorded after all this had happened, possibly in a psychiatric hospital or right before he killed himself.

Dream #2

I may have been visiting my mom's house or living with my mom again. I was in the bathroom. The shower looked awful. The shower head was sprawled along the tub. The drain cover was removed. It looked like there were two drain covers in the tub. Some other metallic items were in the tub. The whole thing was also coated in a slight film of dirt.

I knew I would have to take a shower the next day for work. I wondered if I would be able to. I knew my mom was planning to fix the shower. But I didn't know if she would be able to do it the next day.

Dream #3

A TV show about people who had won the lottery. A couple of them had starred in movies. The movies were basically romantic comedies, vehicles to exploit these people, and centered around the winner, who generally played a character who had undergone a similar twist of fate.

The second winner's real-life story actually began with a scene from the exploitative movie she'd been in. The  woman was in a car in the dark of night. A light played across the woman's face. The woman was on a cell phone, speaking in a somewhat frenzied tone.

I thought, Maybe this film is different, after all. Maybe it's something like a spy film. But then I heard what the woman was saying. It was basically about how she'd won something or had some good stroke of luck. I realized that this movie was also a romantic-comedy vehicle. I was disappointed.

The woman's real-life story went on. Originally the woman had worked for some company in New York, possibly in an assistant position. But when the woman won the lottery, she quit her job. After she finished up her movie (and a couple other things?), however, the woman was asked to come back to her job, except this time in a higher position.

The biography showed the woman walking into her new office, smiling, and closing the door behind her, leaving the camera crew outside, as the narrator explained that the woman had become a CEO of some division of the company.

I wondered how the woman could have the title of CEO, mainly because the nameplate on her door didn't match the title. The nameplate, which was blue plastic, with white writing, like the plate on a bathroom door, said "KO." I tried to figure out what kind of title "KO" was. The title also had the image for a wheelchair just to its left.

The camera was now inside the woman's office. I was interested to see what kind of job the woman was performing. The woman was on the phone, but all she was talking about was how great it was that she had won the lottery.