(9/22/05) i saw her standing there; through a glass darkly

(Entered in paper journal at 8:35 AM at Ozzie's coffee shop at Garfield Street and 5th Avenue in Brooklyn.)

Dream 1

I sat with a small group of folks at a long, wooden table with shelves coming up from its center. We may have been outside. The daylight was like late afternoon.

I stood up at a microphone and sang "I Saw Her Standing There" by the Beatles. I pinched the first couple lines, singing them off key. I continued, doing a little better, but still messing up a couple odd notes. But, apparently, I finished the song well.

I sat down. A couple people had left as I sang. I sat down by a friend. I saw him only slightly, but I heard him clearly in my left hear. He was laughing as he told me I did a good job.

Dream 2

I saw that Ingmar Bergman's Through a Glass Darkly was going to play on TV.

(5/1/08) i would change my life so easily

(Entered in paper journal at 6:15 AM on Q-train from Brooklyn to Manhattan.)

Dream #1

I was in a dark room. It was like a basement. It had concrete floors and walls that felt rocky and thick. It was my bedroom. I was getting dressed under a light fixture. The light wasn't on. Instead, it was like there was a shaft of dim light coming from a window or opening in the ceiling.

I looked over to my bed, which had nothing on it, no sheets, blankets, etc. But a pink pair of panties lay slung on one of the bed's edges. I thought, I really need to stop neglecting this place.

I was now sitting on my bed, probably with my knees pulled up to my chest. The (incandescent) light in the room was on. I was singing along with a song that sounded like it was from the 1960s: --

"I would never chase a sunbird,
I would never watch the sea,
I would never chase a rainbow;
But I would change my life
So rapidly,
Yeah, I would change my life
So easily."

As I sang I thought that my voice sounded pretty good, but that I was just a little off-key.